May 17, 2013

Succeeding at Failing

Awww. You thought this was going to be a long heartfelt post, didn't you?

No. I just came here today to say hey. I'm actually posting to the blog. See? SEE? I'm trying! Trying is doing. Soon enough the posts will actually have content. Soon enough.


"I can accept failure; everyone fails at something. But I can't accept not trying." --Michael Jordan

May 11, 2013

Ahhhh X 3

Ahhhh! I want to post about NESCBWI13 so bad, but I am too busy!

Ahhhh! I graduated today!

Ahhhh! I am so inspired about writing right now that I am going to BURST if I don't get to it in the next few days. I even cancelled a date so I could have time. :D

Bye.

May 7, 2013

For Heather

I changed my header to something less stoner looking. That's Sleeping Bear Dunes, btw.

I'll blog about the 2013 NESCBW conference soon. I just have to stop rotating first.

Mar 18, 2013

Turtles, Water, and Other Fears

I talk a lot about fears. They are a prevailing force in my life. Why I give that much power to the moments I feel weakest is beyond me. A few years ago, I proclaimed that I would go on a conquest to abolish my fears. I said that I would hold a turtle in my hand before the end of the year and skydive over Lake Michigan. I thought those experiences and several more would make a great book.

I have not gone on that eradication expedition. There's still time. As I create schemes to challenge myself, I become aware of more fears. The more I meditate, the more accepting I am of those fears. I am in an foreseen cycle that seems to be more effective than my idea of taking on my fears.

Beside meditation, another part of the cycle that has helped in a book by Dr Susan Jeffers titled Feel the Fear ...And Do it Anyway. So far, the biggest thing she's taught me is that fears do not disappear. It's how we handle them that change. And if we do not feel any fear in our life, then we know we're not challenging ourselves.

I'm all about challenges, both physical and introspective. You already know this. But I am constantly wondering what it is it for? Why do I challenge myself? Is it for the outcome or is it for the journey? I posted about jumping off the breakwall last summer in an effort to overcome my fear of water. I am still freaking scared of water, but I better understand its place in my life.

Even as I write this post, I wonder where I go from here. Do I kick it up a notch, or do I continue on this journey of acceptance? I think a combination of the two is the way to go. I need to push myself to finally hold that scary ass turtle in my hand, but I need to journal before and after that experience.