Jun 10, 2013

The Feels

I've had the feels lately.

That's basically my lazy way of saying:
I have no idea what I am doing in life right now,
I hate my job,
I hate myself, a little,
I've watched my beloved desk plants wither and then at the last second I give them a shot of water,
I'm drinking quite a bit,
I'm playing heavy and melancholy music,
I'm worried about my lowered sex drive (which may actually be slightly providential given its usual heightened state),
I want new clothes (I don't usually give a shit),
and I feel the need to seek out a remedy for...who I am.

I am in the mindset that I need to cure myself of myself.

Even if none of that makes sense, I feel it. I feel it so comprehensively that I think I am a different person than I was last week.

I have the feels.

I want them to go away. I want to know what I am doing in life. I mean, I know what I am supposed to do. I know a WHOLE LOT of what I am supposed to do.

The most beautiful plant on my desk right now is a fake plant.

I want to be a fake plant

It's clearly time to color in my Disney Princess coloring book.

Another remedy: Go on at least one picnic a week. Today's picnic was spent at First Curve Beach :D



Friday at the Tigers game:


6 comments:

  1. Ah the beach, my favorite place outside of my bed. I think I'l enjoy coloring in a Disney Princess book too.

    .......dhole

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  2. I feel that way sometimes too, especially when it comes to writing. Exercise helps me, and I feel a whole lot better when I'm eating right. I hope you get sorted out soon, Jon. Hugs!

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  3. I find that doing things that your soul really really fucking digs ABOVE ALL ELSE is a perfect remedy to the feels. One a day. Do one thing that makes your soul purrrrr. It can be big, it can be small. Fuck the to-do list. Start a want-to-do list. 3 things, pick one a day. It may feel so fucking GOOD that you'll do all three. Then what? Well you'll do the human equivalent to a flower blooming.

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  4. I find that doing one thing for the soul a day ABOVE ALL ELSE is a perfect remedy for the feels. One a day, that's it. Fuck a to-do list. Start a want-to-do list. Write down 3, pick 1. It may feel so GOOD that you'll end up doing all 3.

    One thing a day that makes your soul purrrr and you will do the human equivalent to a flower blooming.

    ACT, DO, DO IT, GO, START. The most powerful way of turning feels into feel goods is action. Action despite fear. Love you

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  5. I find that doing things that your soul really really fucking digs ABOVE ALL ELSE is a perfect remedy to the feels. One a day. Do one thing that makes your soul purrrrr. It can be big, it can be small. Fuck the to-do list. Start a want-to-do list. 3 things, pick one a day. It may feel so fucking GOOD that you'll do all three. Then what? Well you'll do the human equivalent to a flower blooming.

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  6. I find that doing things that your soul really really fucking digs ABOVE ALL ELSE is a perfect remedy to the feels. One a day. Do one thing that makes your soul purrrrr. It can be big, it can be small. Fuck the to-do list. Start a want-to-do list. 3 things, pick one a day. It may feel so fucking GOOD that you'll do all three. Then what? Well you'll do the human equivalent to a flower blooming.

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:D