A few things first:
1. Anita is stopping at Elana Johnson's today with a video! By the way, Elana is having a fun contest, Tag, You're It, through facebook (both links take you to Elana's blog).
2. Andrew Smith is revealing the cover to his next novel, Stick (which I may or may not cryptically refer to below), via other bloggers. I'm linking to Matt at The QQQE for the reveal because I owe him one after forgetting to link to his host post on Wednesday.
And now to spring clean my mind:
If you've read the ABOUT ME at the top of the sidebar you know that I am gay. I have an odd confession on this topic: I have two opposing thoughts plaguing my mind. Please keep in mind that I do not find either of these thoughts to be normal or even acceptable - they just...are.
As a writer, I sort of feel like I have an advantage by being gay. Many agents state that they are looking for quality LGBT stories that don't bang the reader over the head with a message - or something like that. As irrational as it sounds, I think that's exactly where my writing career can and will start. While I do not doubt a good writer's ability to produce a genuine-sounding gay character (I am reading such a novel right now, written by a friend who is straight), I think the perspective I have is different in the way that it wants out of me - it doesn't necessarily have to do with my writing chops. After a life of feeling disadvantaged, perhaps this is just my mind playing tricks on me.
On the other hand, I am also going into secondary education. Not a day goes by without me dreaming up a scenario where being gay makes my job hell. It may sound ridiculous, but it weighs heavily on my mind. Did you know that many states have no law against firing a teacher for being gay? Sadly, many of those states are where teaching jobs are available. Job security and anti-job security in the same place, go freaking figure.
The other day, I wrote that teaching is my fall back if writing doesn't work out. Well, in all honesty, they switch places every other day. Today, writing is a fall back in case teaching doesn't work out.
And I'll restate that I think all this sounds ridiculous; I am making a mountain out of a molehill. Just putting my thoughts out there because man do they take up a lot of space in my head.